"Get The Big Black One..."

I have another Adventure With Avery to share! This guy cracks me up. I can’t believe the shit that falls out of his mouth; he’s definitely my guy. I wonder how much he and Sam match M6’s vibration; we’re pretty close and live just on the other side of Minerva from each other. His personality reminds me of Maui from Moana; he’s obnoxiously charming. I’ve been feeling down and not sure why. Is it my regular Transmutation Bullshit? Is it my ever present and ever unsatisfying obsession with the not-so-Twinny-Twin? Is it the residual fucky energies that plagued us all this past fall? WHAT? Hermina offered to Skype with me to help me get whatever it is off my chest. I wanted to take her up on it but I seem to be repelled from the Internet altogether and have been laying low. I have an unexplainable and slight aversion to being anywhere near social media and I feel like it’s got something to do with self preservation. But the show must go on so after dinner, Alison and I did a great Shiny where we revisited our Future Us’s. Alison and Shiny both give me a big vibrational boost so, aversion to the Internet or not, I looked forward to our session. It went great! Look for it soon. We spoke about my zygote and it made my perception of feeling like our Shiny Show is small time with just a handful of viewers to feeling like it’s huge and I’ve just exposed myself to the masses. Yikes!! After we recorded, I asked Alison one more question: Why have I become stagnant in my healing? She checked in with my DNA and gave me a starting point. “You have a chunk of negative energy in your chest. Tap it and break it up so you can purge it.” “I’ll hug my best vibrator to loosen that shit up.” We giggled, I thanked her, loved on her, and we hung up. I was in better place but still feeling off so I messaged Hermina and asked if it was a good time for her to Skype. Minutes later, I was watching her eat a piece of chocolate cake. “How is it that you’re the one who lost weight yet you’re eating crap every time we Skype?” I demanded. “I count my calories so I can have my crap too.” Now I see my problem and it has nothing to do with diet and exercise and everything to do with math. We were small talking like we do and our conversation turned to our spacemen. This of course brought Sam into it and he explained in more depth about how frightening it can be for us to see them. The opposite is true as well; they too can have strong and fearful reactions to seeing humans in person. Both the Sarsahr and the human generals go through some kind of training and/or desensitizing in order to acclimate their psyches. The conversation turned to Avery next. “Have you connected with him lately?” Hermina asked. “No. I feel a huge disconnect. I’m sure it’s just my funk and my vibes are too low.” Sam said he had been busy working and that is the reason I have felt disconnected. Avery then showed up and apologized for not being more attentive. He then asked Sam for some time off so he can take care of me, and Sam said to take as much time as he needed. They value family over everything else. Hermina asked Avery if he knew what was happening with me. He focused on me and was compassionate as he described in his own words how it was I was feeling. “I know my understanding doesn’t solve your hurt but maybe it helps to know I’m here and that I get it.” Then he told me I was his new project and gave me some steps to follow. First, he explained about the same chunk of negative goop stuck in my chest that my DNA just spoke about two hours prior. “Tonight I want you to have a good cry. It will help soften up that ball of negativity in your chest. I will make you sad about something to help you cry so allow it to happen. Next, I’m going to send in one of our healers to help massage it out. After that, maybe some lady-time with the Sarsahr women and they will give you gifts.” I was so touched, I didn’t know what to say so I just sat there and cried with my face in my hands thanking him. He had more healing plans for me as well. “After that, some lovin’. So take out THAT vibrator.” I started cracking up immediately. “WHICH vibrator?” I asked. “He wants you to buy a new one that’s just for when you think of him. He wants you to buy a black one,” she said. “Black?!!” “Yes, I want a big black dick.” “WHY?! Why does it have to be black? It will frighten me.” “Black humans are known for their big dicks. I have a big dick. I want the big black dick.” “I may choose a different color but I’ll make sure it’s big.” “What, do you think black is too intimidating?” “Yes, that’s it exactly!” “Well, that’s how you reacted when you saw mine, intimidated. Get the big black dick.” Sam left the room at this point. “I wish my conscious self could have been there for the big reveal. I’m gonna enjoy watching that in my life review. I’ll save you a seat next to me, Hermina.” Sam from the other room: “Are they done talking about sex yet?” We were done so Sam came back but it started back up again later as Avery and I have decided to have an orgy with an entire galaxy. He told me not to worry, he’d bring plenty of plant based lubricants. We also discussed in which dimension the Sarsahr exist, what the Sarsahr women think about how human women are plopping our babies into their community for them to raise, and brainstormed about what the Sarsahr may have in store for us next April. One thing's for sure: Avery says he’s gonna show up with a top hat, a spot light, and prolly a twinkle in his eye too. I can’t wait! Thanks Sam, Avery, and Hermina. And Alison and Future Us’s. I got some Shine back. I am especially grateful for Avery to take time to come take care of me. He says he won’t leave me alone and I’ll get sick of him. Impossible. Within an hour he did what he said he was gonna do. I meditated and he dropped his energy into me. I had the saddest thought ever and it made me bawl. I tapped my chest then squeezed my vibrator. His energy is heavy, but not in a weighing down way. It’s more like an energetic blanket that permeates my entire body making me feel wrapped up in safety and love. I don’t know if I had lady-time; what kind of gifts do they give, I wonder. Then there was the last part of his prescription for wellness. I haven’t had a chance to go toy shopping yet so we made do just fine with Purple, wink. Avery, come back and heal me again and again and again.